Time To Do This Different.

The last few months have been kind of tough. For lack of a better description I have been kind of adrift. I’m no longer living in the pit. That went away 4-5 years ago. Since then I have walked ever further away from that edge. I have grown in so many ways. I have a belief in the future and all that is possible. I can survive alone and with that comes confidence I don’t know I have ever really known.  Probably more so than at any other time in my life. Wish i would have felt this way 30 years ago.

So here I am…’I'm ready for new, bigger, better. I’m not sure what that is. Not sure what the next steps are. I just know I can’t live as I have in the past. I can't dwell in the past. I have to let go, and that will be new for me. I have wasted so much of my life thinking of the past. What I did wrong, what I should have done. Dwelling on what I lost and not thinking of the opportunities of now. I have done this wrong, and it is time to try a different path. I will get pieces of this wrong, but there is nothing in the past that I can affect. To dwell there is wasted effort. 

As a first step I have deleted 2 years of blog from this site. I have only left the transformative point of my first trip to Paris. The rest just time spent. It is time to start a new path and create a new story. I have no idea what I am doing. I will have to monitor my thoughts when I drift to the past. That is a habit. That habit has never served me. Time to see what I can find, that will.